Peanuts at school AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are you freaking kidding me?!?!? I just had a meeting with the preschool director and both of Alexa's teachers YESTERDAY. I thought it was a productive meeting and that everyone understood the seriousness involved with Alexa's peanut allergy. The director (at my request) send out letters to the parents reminding them of her allergy and it explained what to avoid, etc.

I get a call from her teacher today telling me that Alexa took a bite of her snack (a granola bar) and they "think" it has peanuts in it. When they realized it, they pulled her away from the class and got the epi-pens and benadryl ready but they hadn't done anything yet because she wasn't showing any symptoms. So I ask if the package says it "may contain peanuts" or what the label actually said and she says "peanuts are listed as about the 5th ingredient on the list and below that it says it contains peanuts". ARE YOU KIDDING ME????

I tell them to immediately give her the benadryl and an epi-pen and I am on my way. I get in the van and speed the whole way to school and on the way I call the school back to find out if they've called 911 yet and they hadn't so I told them to. I pull up in the parking lot just after the paramedics arrive, and went running into the school. I wasn't there long before Alexa was loaded into the ambulance and we were off to the hospital. This time her reaction wasn't nearly as bad as the last time. I don't know if that was because she ingested less peanuts this time or if it was because we reacted more quickly this time and didn't wait for symptoms before we gave her the epi-pen.

I am completely in shock about the whole thing. I can't believe the school gave her a snack with peanuts in it the very next day after our discussion about it. I can't believe I had to tell them to give the medications and call the ambulance. I can't believe my poor baby had to suffer through this whole ordeal AGAIN because of someones negligence. I'm trying to be calm and levelheaded about things, but right now it's not working. I'm angry. I'm dumbfounded. I'm so torn up inside. I don't know what to do.

A large part of me wants to take the girls out of the school and not let them return. I feel like I cannot trust the school with my daughter's safety and why would I leave them there even for a few hours each day if I don't trust they will be safe? On the other hand, the girls LOVE school and they would feel like I am punishing them if I tell them they can't go there anymore.

I don't know what I am going to do yet. I plan to go to the school tomorrow and find out exactly what happened today and what they plan to do to make sure it never happens again. It was mentioned to me that they think I should provide Alexa's snacks from here on out, and that's not a problem but it also doesn't fix the problem entirely. The classroom still needs to be peanut free to keep her safe and although if I provide all her snacks it would reduce the risk of her having a reaction, she could still come in contact with peanuts from her classmates snacks.

I guess I will talk to the school and see what happens from there.